Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Irritated


I just wrote a whole tirade, and then I remembered dooce, and deleted it. Everyday, I eat lunch in my room. It's the only time between 9 and 2:30 that I don't have a class full of kids. I need the quiet time. And I mean NEED it. I have received an email saying that all certified staff must eat in the cafeteria. I guess my solution is to not eat, because I just can't do that. I really can't. I'm nearing a breaking point. I thought I could handle this, but this is ridiculous. I have to keep telling myself that I'm not a quitter, but I want to quit. And cry. It may seem like lunch isn't a big deal, but it's all we had. It's just all we had.

3 comments:

Allison said...

Only a couple more weeks! You can do it!!!

Katie Bonk said...

I completely understand- I've been in a school cafeteria as a "grown-up" and you feel ridiculous eating there. Could you just graze on food throughout the day and then sit in your classroom in peace without eating for that hour?

Carmen Eckard said...

I feel a lot better now. I ate lunch in there today, and it wasn't too bad...I wouldn't mind doing it every once in a while. But I just really can't do it everyday. I'm discouraged. But not as much as before. And Katie...I'll find out tomorrow if that's OK-I may have to spend my lunch time in there even if I don't eat. I'm not sure. But it's only 25 minutes, but you have to shave a couple minutes off that for the teachers being late, then, you have to countgetting all the kids out the the room, microwaving my food, walking down the cafeteria, walking back from the cafeteria, and using the bathroom...that is about 10 minutes to eat, so I guess not really worth me worrying about anyway.